

Frozen Orbital ImplosionFixed in the sphere; of reality Broken in the realm; of society Drenched in the fear; of vitality Burn in the napalm; of MENTALITYFrozen Orbital Implosion
Enigma of the mere human domain Billowing in the calm disgust We're the civilization of pain Sitting and waiting to combust
We're the generation of insane Hating ourselves and eating dust "MAYDAY, MAYDAY", shout thoughts in my brain Relating dread in mighty gusts
Fixed in the sphere; of reality Broken in the realm; of society Drenched in the fear; of vitality Burn in the napalm; of MENTALITY
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Central Collective Componentcold to the touch, numb to the bone this is what history made me groomed to actions, thrown in the zone making fractions to set me freeCentral Collective Component
i need my fix, no distractions this is what history made me seeking your pain, my attraction my private gain to hear you plea
apologies, it's in my brain. this is what history made me i can not cease, maybe insane it gives me peace to the i.d. (Insane Daemon)
it's not my fault, it's my release this is what history made me engraved on in, only to increase personal sin, shh, count to three. -----


Abominable Addictioni have no cigarettes just a bottle of my booze i want my fucking drugs but i have my clean time tooAbominable Addiction
don't miss feelings of bugs but if you all only knew maybe i just need a hug my mind may be a bit blue
NO I WANT MY FUCKING DRUGS THERE'S NOTHING I WOULDN'T DO
what will become of me? need something to get into what happened to i.d.? maybe i'm just overdue
YES I WANT MY FUCKING DRUGS THERE'S NOTHING I WOULDN'T DO
i could just do a few a little bit here and there that's all very untrue a


Afflicted Retentionisolated in my stereo sound to replace the pain she put me through empty without it and i can't reboundAfflicted Retention
and i'm afraid to admit it's true i was a fuckin' glutton for it all to maintain us as one and not two
she was horrible with her eight ball always the sniff sniff cough cough choke choke but i was in it for the endless haul
'twas way too much for this troubled bloke she brutally raped my existence and quickly left me for fucking broke
to endure the line of least resistance --------------- 5-3-07


Polar Blue Lovelittle boy blue doesn't give a fuck about you he lies, he does but, so what, he says fuck you tooPolar Blue Love
he's falling apart i can't seem to make the pieces stay he just lost his heart but there's nothing left to fucking say
don't care, no where to start he said goodbye, after the depart like to say, if he may under the decay, i thank you
he had love for ya but it's finished, he's finished and all that blah blah lies, the love won't diminish
you'll always be my baby's ma --------------- 4-11-07


Communal Education-Eradicationthe penetration of this generation is forever seemingly intolerable the lack of foundation fills me with trepidation how can it ever be accomplishable?Communal Education-Eradication
it requires innovation and mental masturbation
to set up for the alter without the helter-skelter
hurry into your formation and deliver salvation
travel rapidly to the objective and modify all of their prespectives --------------- 3-17-07


Mistaken Fortune Part 1she found me in the dirt so tired and weary i couldn't help but blurt her big smile so cheeryMistaken Fortune Part 1
picked me up by my hand my life so dark and dreary making my eyes expand a little bit the teary
open to her command she was my wonderful guide with nothing ever planned in her mits my heart reside
upon one night in my room in the night left to decide risk the potential doom or should i go back and hide?
couldn't help, but assume only the worse would occur was like making my tomb what happened next was... a blur


Rectal SmokeStage smoke. What's it's purpose? To see? To Smell? To touch? No, no. It's to feel! The feeling of excitement. Of anticipation. Of enthrallment. First phase. Setup. Prepare. The drumroll of emotions.Rectal Smoke
Second phase. Perform. Execute. But what if it doesn't occur? What do you have? You have excitement, anticipation, tension. All bottled up. Nothing to pop the cork. Nothing to free the bonds. Celebration without the party. Shotgun without the shell. A little boy without a soul.
You have an incomplete act. Broken pr
Silence Said The Shepherd
Street Couching

Instant NirvanaInstant NirvanaInstant Nirvana
In the spring of 2004 there was a young man. A quite desperate young man in fact. He was at the core of a complicated situation that was invulnerable to salvation. With a history riddled with depression, personal anxiety and chronic stomach pain, the young man desperately needed salvation. An instant nirvana. The problems only became more complicated over time and he searched ravagedly for solutions. "What can I do?", he'd ponder late into the night.
See, this young man was the type that would think of solving problems untill he actually solved them. In his current situation, to solve one problem was
Pandora's Womb

Sakefully QuickOh, holy one I kneel before you For my life is done What am I to do?Sakefully Quick
I've sat and prayed My impatience grew Waiting for aid Which was way overdue
My hope was left to fade Time has passed
I'm reaching for the blade For my sake, please act fast --------------- 11-06-03, Saturday Evening


Subsequent Conclusionthere's nothing left for me now nothing left to lose everything to gain now i'm just sick of this abuseSubsequent Conclusion
life is hanging by a thread [now] soon you'll see me on the news with all my body cold and dead [now] what was i left to choose?
look at all the pretty red [now] didn't i leave you clues? it doesn't matter now i'm left with nomore bluesss! --------------- 9-07-03, Sunday Morning


Postponing Animationi don't understand why i wait the final solution, no more pain i sit and drift, postponing fate one solution, one shot in the brainPostponing Animation
but yet i insist, i shall wait something this poem, could not explain ... -------------- 9-01-03, Monday Night


Atrocious Sirei can't take this agony anymore his fists are knives to all of my pride with every punch puncturing the core leaving me meaningless insideAtrocious Sire
what did i do to deserve all of this? all of my self-worth has gone and died i never knew so much anguish exists blade and skin will forever collide --------------- 8-15-03, Friday Night


Hanging With Easei\'m ready to watch myself hangHanging With Ease
the noose is swaying with ease
life will perish without a bang
i think it will be a breeze
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6-19-03, Saturday Evening


Sigh Of Betrayalforever betrayed, i will stay forgiveness denied, nothing left to say feelings aside, inside i\'ve died life\'s a disarray, left alone, i sigh --------------- 6-26-03, Thursday NightSigh Of Betrayal


Esoteric Pleasancewhat has happened to me? why is this knife in my hand? mind and heart can\'t agree.Esoteric Pleasance
no one will ever understand the power of the knife heals it will always make me feel grand
can\'t describe why it appeals forever and always unbelievably surreal --------------- 6-23-03, Monday Night


Its For The Better\"stay away from him\", she proclaimed mind crushed and my heart destroyed i drift off, completely ashamed my depression redeployedIts For The Better
what am i to do? depression inflamed i know, it\'s overdue
gun in hand, my head maimed in my room i left a letter this is what the note exclaimed:
it\'s for the better --------------- 5-26-03, Monday Morning